Saturday, January 14, 2006

Letter to myself

This is the StarShip Enterprise. Star Date 01142006.1314. Captains log.

Hi. This is you. On a lazy Sunday afternoon in Boston you decided to write down what you thought abt things. Your honest views when you were 25. You had nobody in perticular near you to talk to so what you did was tell it to everybody in general. hehe...u were smart or what!
Long ago when you were a kid you were the best at hiding your emotions and opinions from people. But now you have grown up and not afraid of saying them out loud. Good for you man! or maybe you have realised that people are always engrosed in their own lives and they dont give a damn abt what you think anyway.
whatever the case maybe I know at least one person who is going to be interested in reading this. You yourself, many many years after you wrote it. So now that many years have passed, sit back and relax as you get to travel back in time to I dont know wheather you have changed or not, but I have a feeling you always do :)
For those of you who are not me you can enjoy a sneak-peak at somebody's personal diary of sorts.

Lets change the grammer to present tense now.
I have already mentioned the stardate but this is just to refresh your memory. You have come here on 6th Aug 2005 to try and get a Masters degree in Boston University. 1st sem is over and 2nd is about to begin tomorrow. You are still getting over your life of leisure and enjoyment that you were so used to in puNe. damn!! those were fun days. goes

Intelligence, Beauty and your dad's money
These are the 3 most important things till you are in college, and in that order.
The irony is you are born with all the three. I always wondered why some poeple did better than me in college and why I did better than some. Sometimes I used to hate myself for not being able to do what I wanted. Now I realise it was not that big a deal. Because the most important thing you need to do in college is build what they call a character. From then on slowly these three things start taking a back seat and the character thing becomes the driver. You develop it with every decision you take, every dream that you fulfil and every desire that you let go. being proud of intelliegence or beauty is childish. What you should be really concerned abt is this guy. After all what is the fun in winning when you have good cards, its the bad cards that make the game worth playing. Or maybe I am just jealous.

I am no patriot. "Patriotrism is a virtue of the vicious" they say. But I like India. And sometimes I feel like doing something for it. Not immidiately but sometime. Maybe not a lot but something. Why? dont know. I have found nothing that is actually fulfilling. I dont know wheather I ever will. But this might come close. Lets see.

Now thats scary. Scary things interest me. I have thought abt it a lot. I mean why poeple marry. Obviously where is a trivial solution. If you find someone you love and she returns the favor then ur all set. Now for the more "complex" part.
We need a witness for your lives. Somebody to be there for us at the end of the day, and more importantly _only_ for us. I guess the actual person doesn't matter that much. You can get used to almost any decent individual once you accept that she is the one. What does being commited to a person give you? It gives you a purpose. To enrich her life, raise a family, etc. etc. And boy! are we hungry for a purpose! Plus it comes with added atraction like sex, somebody who will make you feel important and wanted, plus there is the pension plan with old-age companionship too. All in all its a good solution to a lot of problems. My only concern is that it might be lot more than it promises. So much more that you might lose track of any other purpose that you had or could have had. Will find out..

will add more later...




Anonymous saitaan said...


Sidya Uvacha...kay kam dhanda nahi ka re bhadya..tula...hahaha
pan changala lihilays..

1:36 AM, January 17, 2006  
Blogger Girya , Sadashiv Peth Pune said...

Hi Sid ,

Nice thoughts ,
Mala hya topics var DD karyla avdel.Anyways , tu Indiat alyavar baghu.

Some Nice thoughts related to Education by Swamiji:
Education is the manifestation of the perfection already in man.
To me the very essence of education is concentration of mind, not the collecting of facts.
That society is the greatest, where the highest truths become practical.

12:22 PM, January 17, 2006  
Blogger siddhya said...

thank u gentlemen(upahas) for ur comments

10:57 AM, January 21, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

well this doesnt seem to be a Captain's log to me!!!sidya- ur image here is completely different.Thought u were a pure vulcan (more like Mr.Spock's father perhaps)but i am glad u r a human.And u saying ur thoughts aloud is really wierd.Anyways there is no point in leaving this thread aloose,continue it,is the only option.keep on writing.Still havent seen ur golden edge......take care.bye.(u know u this is, i guess )

8:15 PM, January 24, 2006  
Blogger siddhya said...

well...logic is a tool. If you are only logical, u r basically boring.
It is the end that give the means their importance. And the end cannot be defined in terms of logic alone, there has to be some emotion to drive it.
I have managed to say my thoughts out loud...but i guess someone is still afarid to do it, Mr. anonymous ;)

10:31 PM, January 26, 2006  
Blogger Kasturi said...

Hi Siddarth, Nice blog....I got ur link from the emails....i really liked ur this post..u have an amazing style of writing! cool!!!

9:29 AM, February 24, 2006  
Blogger siddhya said...

thanks a lot kasturi

7:59 PM, February 24, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

arey don! great posts..
marriage part patlay..
may be reason for resonance is being alone out here.


9:45 AM, February 27, 2006  
Blogger siddhya said...

thanks madu. Ya, and u r right abt the reason for resonance. I didnt write anything when I was in pune. jo parenta bolta yetay to parenta lihayachi kay garaj? :)

10:16 PM, February 27, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

are daru pina kami kar...tula sambhalnare koni nahi tikde....asle uddyog karnyaparis hatilat phadka mar ekhadya

9:20 PM, March 20, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hnn nice thogts..... u r afraid of u r self...rather i would say u feel all the the things, for others as u think, are insted u feel for u r self...... u r thinking needs more of a feel free touch..i said feel free & not no feel .... & a bit of streamline....

9:36 PM, March 20, 2006  
Blogger abhi said...

ultimate yaar!!!मे तुमचा ब्लॉग वचटला..खूपच छान आहे...पण तुम्हाला मराठीत ल्हिवायचा पाहिजे होता ना...आजुन छान वाटत होता...हे सिते वापरुन पहा
हेच्यात तुम्ही ज़ार मराठी लिपी मधे ल्हिवट्या तर ते त्याला मराठी लिपीत यनिकी ेवनागरी लिपीत बदलते...वापरुन पहा तुम्ही...

10:31 PM, June 08, 2007  
Blogger All Talk and No Action said...

so its been 5 years...what do you think when u revisit this post? :)

12:50 AM, February 02, 2010  
Blogger siddhya said...

my thoughts remain pretty much the same. i guess well thought out fundas can change either by consistent and incessant thinking (for which 5 years is not enough) or by sudden life altering events (of which i didn't have any :P).

but thanks for bringing me back to this post, i like it more than most others :)

11:32 AM, February 03, 2010  
Blogger All Talk and No Action said...

yes a good post indeed.

Also maybe u shd update ur blog more frequently.

5:05 PM, February 03, 2010  

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